It has always been grace

There is a saying... the Lord is faithfull.. even when we are faithless...

When I read my previous blogs.. and i can remember the whole moments when i wrote those.. i realized i was so messed up in my soul...

I tried so hard to feel secure in life... feel OK with life.. but i wasnt...

I felt judged the whole life.. and pushed to be perfect at all time.. i have so much fear of some people that will overwhelm me to be who they want me to be.

Im tired of being pushed...

there are things in life... i didnt know why it happens in the beginning.. but now it all makes sense...

my heart knows well.. that He is kind to me..
He has a plan. a perfect one for me

all my life... even until now.. I have so much to do list...
But i feel im enough..
im not pushed anymore.. and the person that pushed me so much now, fear of losing me...
because there is someone else who loves me for who i am...

The rough path we go thru, isnt meant for us to be bitter... or to be proud of what we have achieved now...

those paths is for us to build empathy... understanding , love and kindness for others.

People will not feel blessed by us bragging our pride ( read: wealth and achievements)

They feel blessed by us sharing life.

in the end.... or even now...
it has always been Ok....