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Thursday, August 4, 2022
1st peter 2
I am very impressed by this chapter in the bible... it talks alot about most difficult part of me to implement in my life... when i read this, 1
So get rid of all evil and all deceit and hypocrisy and envy and all slander.
And yearn like newborn infants for pure, spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up to salvation,
I realized how toxic is my heart without the Lord. I dont know how i inherit those toxicity, i have seen so many kind non-malicious people, non slanderous, true and non envy people... even some of them are non christian, how am I still like this? therefore i am yearning for pure spiritual milk... needing of it so badly in my life.. begging the Lord please nurture me like a baby, i dont know this kind of heart still lives in me .
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ending of the chapter, I found The Lord is speaking to me.. I found myself been so mean to people whose words are mean to me, and i tend to hurt people for my own benefit sake, for a few times.. and ive been living with that kind of regret.. on the other hand, i also left a lot of people who once being mean to me. I talk back being mean to them and look down on them... how i felt so regretful..
I dont know, but there are some kind of people that i just CANT get along, i just cant blend, i just dont get their heart.. i dont find them being kind or whatever... well.. i should just follow christ like ... He is amazing ... He bore my sins, in His body, didnt retaliate anything.. how i wish I can be just like HIm .
He committed no sin nor was deceit found in his mouth.
When he was maligned, he did not answer back; when he suffered, he threatened no retaliation, but committed himself to God who judges justly.
He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, that we may cease from sinning and live for righteousness. By his wounds you were healed.
Sunday, December 26, 2021
2022
In my Darkest time, Your Light will SHINE..
We dont know when our time comes.. the time when we face our dark moments...
the time when we are hurt by other people.. and the time when we fall in love...
We dont know when our heart is in need of God sometimes.. thats why we pray... we tell Him, we are in need of Him even in the peak of our lives..
This moment of CHristmas, His Light shines upon our soul.. the dark gloomy heart has been lightened up.. we have HOPE which is in Christ.
Fear is inevitable. but Faith is always there for us to grasp.
in ending.. all I have to say is..
Lord, please more of YOU in 2022. amen
Monday, July 12, 2021
Indonesian Crazy Fried Rice
Crazy Fried Rice.
Ingridients:
4 clove of garlic
4 clove of red onion ( small ones)
2 pcs of candlenut/ kemiri ( its ok if you dont have one )
3 pcs of chilli chopped
1-2 pc of beef brastwut sausage
2 pcs of eggs
3 bowl of white rice
mash together:
4 clove of garlic
4 clove of red onion ( small ones)
2 pcs of candlenut/ kemiri ( its ok if you dont have one )
Heat vegetable oil
put inside all the mash ingridient + chopped chilly
until it smells really good, put aside.
Sautee beef sausage, and egg ( make it scramble )
Put in the mash ingridients
Stir, when all seems cooked,
Put in white rice ( 2-3 bowls / accordingly)
Stir till all mixed
Put in 2 tbs of Soy Sauce
1 tbs of sweet sauce
2 tbs of tomato sauce
chicken powder stock
and salt ( accordingly)
Sunday, July 11, 2021
Simple Chicken Nabe Soup
Chicken Nabe Soup
Very Easy comforting soup.
Sautee 200 gr Chicken thigh with 4 clove of garlic and chopped ginger.
put aside the chicken when half cooked.
Put aside the chicken only
Put inside chopped mushroom inside the pan
sautee until brown ( so mushroom flavour will come out )
Put back the chicken inside
Pour 200ml of milk and stir
Pour in 300ml of water
Put inside vegetables ( usually Chinese cabbage)
Put inside Water tofu
Put inside
chicken stock powder
salt accodingly.
* You can put any vegetables you like actually, My version ( in this picture ) since i dont have Chinese cabbage is that i put in mushroom, tofu, beansprout and a little bit of bokchoy :D *
Saturday, July 10, 2021
Boncinno July 2021
Some dreams never change :D.
since im 10 year old, now 36 years old.
Really hope my creation could be appreciated financially :D
I have no idea how to market it. Only know creating simple somthing ...
Egg Tofu Omelete
Simple Cooking
Egg Tofu Omelete.
At home, i only have some frozen chickenbreast, egg and japanese tofu.
I always try to create healthy simple food that I can cook fast yet delicious.
I will write it down here, so I wont forget
2 eggs whip in a bowl
Japanese tofu ( i used half portion ) or just put accordingly
1 1/2 table spoon of Soy Sauce
1/2 table spoon of sesame oil
and sprinkles of mushroom broth powder ( or chicken or beef powder will do )
* put everything in a bowl and whip it together
Put olive oil in non sticking pan
Pour on the omelete on in
Pour on green onions ..
wait until 3 minutes or so... and flip it
wait on 3 minutes again. then serve
Monday, June 15, 2020
It has always been grace
When I read my previous blogs.. and i can remember the whole moments when i wrote those.. i realized i was so messed up in my soul...
I tried so hard to feel secure in life... feel OK with life.. but i wasnt...
I felt judged the whole life.. and pushed to be perfect at all time.. i have so much fear of some people that will overwhelm me to be who they want me to be.
Im tired of being pushed...
there are things in life... i didnt know why it happens in the beginning.. but now it all makes sense...
my heart knows well.. that He is kind to me..
He has a plan. a perfect one for me
all my life... even until now.. I have so much to do list...
But i feel im enough..
im not pushed anymore.. and the person that pushed me so much now, fear of losing me...
because there is someone else who loves me for who i am...
The rough path we go thru, isnt meant for us to be bitter... or to be proud of what we have achieved now...
those paths is for us to build empathy... understanding , love and kindness for others.
People will not feel blessed by us bragging our pride ( read: wealth and achievements)
They feel blessed by us sharing life.
in the end.... or even now...
it has always been Ok....
Saturday, June 15, 2019
Monday, May 27, 2019
Galatians 1 : 1
........Bukan karena manusia, juga bukan oleh seorang manusia, melainkan oleh Yesus Kristus dan Allah, Bapa, yang telah membangkitkan Dia dari antara orang mati.
segala kepusingan aku mengenai hal hal duniawi... ketakutan aku akan hal hal duniawi yang akan datang.. dapat kuserahkan kepada Tuhan. bukan hanya itu... tp dengan percaya kepada kebenaran bahwa... memang segala sesuatu dari awalnya datang itu bukan karena manusia. kami di jadikan sampe sekarang ini segala langkah kami berawal dari oleh Yesus Kristus. dan ke depan nya dapat kami percayakan kepada Yesus kristus dengan guidance dan iman kepadaNya.
"......kasih karunia menyertai kamu dan damai sejahtera dari Allah, Bapa kita, dan dari Tuhan Yesus Kristus"
Paulus berbicara kepada jemaat di gereja galatia. tp juga kepadaku. aku dapat mempercayakan imanku kehidupan masa depanku kepada kasih karunia Tuhan Allahku. Intervensi dari Nya pertolongan dari Nya yang membuat ku tenang dan tetap berjalan di air yang tenang.
4 who gave himself for our sins to rescue us from the present evil age,according to the will of our God and Father, 5 to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.
Kasih karunia Tuhan ... Dia mati di kayu salib supaya kita ini terlepas dari kehidupan jahat dunia... dan sudah terbukti selama aku hidup. Dia selalu melindungi aku dari yang jahat.... bahkan ketika aku complain akan keputusan2 DIa .. tetap Dia memperlihatkan aku.. bahwa aku ini di lindungi DIa...
ujungnya pasti untuk kemuliaan Tuhan.
| 1:6 | Aku heran, bahwa kamu begitu lekas berbalik dari pada Dia, yang oleh kasih karunia Kristus telah memanggil kamu, dan mengikuti suatu injil lain, |
| 1:7 | yang sebenarnya bukan Injil. Hanya ada orang yang mengacaukan kamu dan yang bermaksud untuk memutarbalikkan Injil Kristus. |
Aku pun heran betapa cepatnya aku ketakutan akan hal buruk yang akan terjadi padaku. atau iman yang gampang goyah... dan cepat banget aku tidak percaya lagi dengan iman yang telah kudapatkan dahulu kala..
dan mengikuti injil yang lain: mengikuti norma dunia... terkadang ini yang menjadi batu sandungan aku. ada norma norma dunia yang aku terapkan dalam kehidupan cinta aku... yang sebenarnya membebankan orang yang kita kasihi.. omongan omongan orang yang mengacaukan aku ... yang kemungkinan harusnya aku sabar menanti tapi aku jadi kacau balau... karena norma yang sebenarnya bukanlah firman Tuhan.
pilah yang mana yang kebenaran. yang mana norma manusia. jangan sampe menjadi sebuah kebenaran.
Tuhan itu out of the box.... memiliki anugrah dan keajaiban masing masing karena itu berjalanlah dalam iman dan pengharapan kepada DIA... dan LOOK UP TO HIM.... and you will see wonders of His majesty.
i believe i am on track. just that i need to love Jesus more.. by relying on Him
with this blog i wanted to say it firm that I will just pray and let God.
I am scared of losing... but im also vr stress
i will not decide on anything. and just let Him alone...
amen
Sunday, December 9, 2018
n i c o d e m u s
Love this man named Nicodemus. A respected religious man who is hunger for the truth. He didnt conform with his society and his status as a pharisee, but he walks and talks because of the truth.
When he met Jesus discreetly, Jesus's responds wasnt so nice also...
but as i read more in the bible and in wikipedia..he is very amazing.. he dared to challenge the court that Jesus has the right to be heard before the judge.
i think he was the only guy who has the gut to at least speak out to the court for Jesus.
also, when Jesus was dead.. he assisted Joseph from arimmatea to help him take his body .
according to historian, he was a wealthy man, he brought myyrh and aloes yang banyak sekali ...
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nicodemus
I want to start to learn about more bible characters who had an amazing life and faith in God
Saturday, December 8, 2018
p u r e l o v e
my heart couldnt choose without love.
my heart has no choice where love exist.
Dear you,
my gift of Christmas.
I know I am wrong. I am sorry that i love you. I am sorry that i care for you, that you has lost a pure friendship from me. Seeing how innocent and pure you are about us, is a pain and peace at the same time.
Listening to you, seeing you getting stronger each day is my joy and my treasure. Your sadness become my sadness, your comfort become my goal, your future becomes my prayers.
maybe this is pure love,
not asking you to be mine, but loving you for who you are.
facilitating freedom that you seek.
supporting your heart prayers and desires.
I would like to be a home for you
and my prayers is that...
maybe someday....
Sunday, February 5, 2017
Purpose in Life - calledcourse - lesson 1
We have a general calling as a believer and specific calling in our life.
1. i have a call to live a holy life (1 thessalonians 4:7)
2. I have a call to know Jesus intimately
3. I have a call to forgive when we have been treated unfairly.
4. I have a call to live in freedom (gal 5:13)
5. To serve one another
I have a special specific calling in my life. And He will prepare the way for me. only I can walk the paths He lays out for me.
My calling is isnt about me. It is to established me in a strategic position for the sake of serving those around you in a powerful way to build God's kingdom.
Calling is not just for those who works for ministry. some people are called to be a consultant, and IT programmer, an accountant, and some are ministers.
When we live in our calling, we are not benefitting only for ourselves, but we glorify the Lord, His love and presence will always be with me and powerfully impacting so many lifes.
I am created on purpose for a purpose to do something.
but I need to know my primary identity
My primary identity is : I am a servant
if we dont have our primary identity, our calling will destroy us.
"what we do for ourselves dies with us, what we do for others is immortal" .
Discussion:
1. How does knowing that everyone has a calling, not just pastors and ministers, change the way you approach life?
I know about it, thats why im trying to learn to find out whats my specific calling in God.
2. Why is your primary identity to be a servant, regardless of the specific calling God gives you?
the opposite of a servant is a boss. if i have a bossy heart, or even a bossy attitude, how can my calling impacting others? it would be all about me. and the way i want it to be. and these ego and pride not just gonna destroy our calling and the main purpose of God's calling but also towards ourselves.
3. Why is the connection between identity and calling so important?
I cant build something big if myself is so limited
4. What has God already told you about your specific calling?
i am not so sure on this. but what i know , i am fruitful in business as a childrenwear fashion business entrepreneur.
5. What steps are you taking to walk or grow in your specific calling?
i dont know, if its impactful towards others... im not sure about what i hear from God
Tuesday, January 10, 2017
Vision 2017 sermon
Friday, December 30, 2016
Teach me how to pray
Our God, The Father who owns the heaven is a person. He is here as a person with us in form of the holy spirit.
praying for me is like finding Him and fellowshipping. Sharing my heart to Him, knowing He is there to listen and understand my heart.
One verse that gives me confidence in finding Him, is "draw near to me and I will draw near to you". I am lazy to finding Him feeling afraid that He will tell me that I am wrong here . and wrong there. but as i read more in the bible... He is not like that. He is not a father we all see in this world. He is a father who loves us. His love cant be comprehend with our human mind.
He is a father we never have. even if you have a perfect father, your human dad is just a glimpsed of who HE is.
Bible says "psalm27:10 : though my Father and Mother forsake me, He took me in".
I dont know who you are reading my blog. but i can assure you... that He wants to take you in, as His child. He loves you, and He has what is best for you, you can ask HIm, might not be what you want ... but you can trust HIm..
I have walked with Jesus for past 15 years. i have sets of disappointments of not getting what i want in life. but I said to Him, that I will still walk with Him and trust Him no matter what happened in life. I realize every "short-term" dissapointments turns out to be for my good ... and now i'm 31 years old. theres none of my dissapointment journeys actually is a dissapointment. All of it turns out to be for my good and my benefit... I can only see all this backward... and so thankful to HIm.
and the greatest thing is, all of it.... makes me understand Him even more... knowing Him as a father.. whom i cant see ... but i can feel and know His love for me.
the journey of my walk with God is the realization of this verse
Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
And through all the bad journeys... I can see His trails of His protections... never once He forsake me. WHen i shouted that He is not helping me. When i threatened Him to leave HIm. WHen i cursed HIm in my heart. None of the above bothering Him or keeping HIm from loving me..
How can I not be thankful to Him.
Friends, He is a real God... He is a real Father... If He loves me, He loves you too....
what we need to do is to welcome HIm... no matter how dirty we are.. maybe we are addicted to pornography, or drugs... or sex.. or alcohol... we can come to Him and ask Him for help.
Jesus taught us the prayer "our father in heaven" as the first sentence in the Lords prayer. now I understand why He put that sentence at the beginning of the prayer.
Everytime, i wanna talk to someone i love or i care, I will call his / her name with gentle heart and voice.. asking him to come and listen to me.
and that is Him. He listens.. He loves... and He also disciplines.. discipline could be painful... but discipline will guide our life.. to gain understanding could cost our life (proverbs 4)... but only understanding coud guide our life...
So come to Him. He is there for you.. with you... and never forsake you
Thursday, November 10, 2016
Mean girls
I dont think you will read this blog of mine, bitch.
One of the most people i couldnt stand, is mean people. Usually girls become mean out of jealousy.
When someone is mean.. either the person realized or dont realized it, it is the victim who feels things.
I dont know why, some girls ... strangers or , acquaintances not even friends... could ever be so mean to me...
I have no idea, why they hated me so much... i take it as jealousy.
They could bitch me in public for being nice to others...
I have this eery feeling or maybe fear everytime i see that (few) people. even thou she is now happily not more jealous of me and have something that they have been longing for.
Now these people could suddenly greet me without memory of being a bitch .
in the end... they were wondering why i do not want to be their friend anymore...
when they realize that i was hurt by their actions, they will kindly defense themselves for being ignorant and i was too sensitive.....
Yes, we sometimes meet wrong people.
Wednesday, May 18, 2016
Masa lalu
Terkadang bukan masalah karena diri tidak dapat berdamai. Tetapi ini memang hidup. Hidup itu penuh tantangan, dan tantangan terbesar dalam hidup biasa nya adalah untuk berteman dengan masa lalu. Karena masa lalu memang sudah hilang dan tidak ada, tapi jejak dan sisa nya sering kali jelas masih hidup di dalam diri seseorang.
Saat ini, saya bisa dengan lantang berkata saya sangat bahagia, karena jejak masa lalu yang buruk buruk sudah betul betul samar dan bisa di katakan punah. Jujur tidak ada yang saya lakukan untuk menghilangkan nya , saya hanya mengakui, berdoa dan membalikkan pikiran. Tidak ada kata maaf yang terlontar atau apapun. Saya hanya fokus akan apa yang harus saya fokuskan. selebihnya urusan Tuhan.
agak ngeri untuk dapat membayangkan apa yang masa lalu dapat lakukan kepada masa depan seseorang. tapi memang tidak usah di pikirkan.
Saya berkeputusan untuk seolah olah memandang orang sebagai seseorang yang baru. sekalipun dia ada di masa lalu. masa lalu terkadang seperti mimpi buruk yang di ingat kan kembali oleh seorang kawan lama.
Setiap orang memiliki cerita, cerita memang perlu di ingat. Tapi orang pasti berubah. Ketika seseorang telah berubah, barulah cerita lama yang buruk itu menjadi indah. karena itu saya berkeputusan untuk melihat seseorang seolah olah sudah berubah, sekalipun dia belum mau berubah.
*Nin
Friday, December 25, 2015
Merry Christmas 2015
I havent been writing since 2012. or since we all have the app called Instagram to be exact. Picture does represent a thousand words.
I do miss writing :). i am not actually a very good writer. i am a moody writer. I could only write when i am on the mood of writing.
I did write a lot when i was in college. and i stupidly wrote it all in multiply. didnt even store anything on document files. now it alllll gonnneeeee....
Usually we all do 2 things to welcome a new year.
1. review the previous year
2. planning the new year.
today i am in the mood to write for my new year. and a lil bit of what i feel on 2015
I have so much plan to do in my head. but i havent write it down in a blueprint. it is hard ey... to write your head on a paper.
this year is the very first year, i feel very much at rest... its like.. one of the most remarkable year . i feel so much at ease and peace about myself and my life. and I think i have become the person I always wanted to become. i am loved. I am very blessed.
i dont know whats gonna happen on 2016. He says that 2016 is the year of restoration. but i will not bombarded my faith anymore like i used to do. coz i am very easy to loose my faith everytime people has mean comments to me. so i better shut up and enjoy my life.
This blog will be a private blog... i will have to consistently do another blog for my boncinno children wear brand
i literally have no idea on what to write on the blog.
so ... :)
Merry Christmas


